Internal Dialogue

A dream is a wish your heart makes when your heart is fast asleep. But what if the dreams has come upon you slowly and almost imperceptibly to the point where you don’t remember a time when it wasn’t there.

But is the dream only an idea that you’ve remembered like remembering an old boyfriend’s phone number. You fear this dream may not even belong to you, like the old boyfriend wasn’t supposed to be, but the memory still lingers. Maybe you’re trying to force something that shouldn’t be. Maybe you’re holding on to something that shouldn’t be.


If it should have been, wouldn’t the path be clearer and the constant knocking, answered?

Where’s the light at the end of the tunnel? All you need is a glimmer to hold on to. You’ve let enjoying life distract you from pursuing the dream and goal. You don’t want to go through the heart ache and failure again. You gloss it over like it’s not a big deal, trying not to let others see your disappointment, but it is a big deal and it does hurt.

Life is experienced in the pain as well as the joy. When you know one, the other is felt all the more.

Life is meant for living. Try and fail. Learn as you go. People aren’t going to understand, and your job isn’t to answer to those people.

Are you pursuing what You were created for? Even if you’re stumbling, you’re on the right path.

Still looking for what you’re created for? Find the thing that makes your eyes light up when you’re talking about it.

Still trying to find a way to make a living at it? Keep pushing. Don’t hold back.

Leave all of you on the court. That may be different day to day, but only you can determine what putting all of you into it means. Sometimes it may be the 5 extra pushups, that one last paragraph, turning off the computer and going to bed, or not being so hard on yourself.

You are capable of so much. Don’t sell yourself short.